Remember When.....November 12, 2008

Lately I have been working on a DVD scrapbook for my Grandmommy for Christmas (well, actually Thanksgiving) this year. Looking back at all our childhood pictures and those of my parents when they were young makes me think and remember! When did I become an adult? How did that happen? I still can't believe that words like mortgage, daycare, bills, and (gulp) mini-van even apply to me. Not to mention the fact that I am responsible for 3 lives other than my own. As I look back at all these pictures, I see the changes in my mom that took place over the years. I always wondered how she knew everything (I never got over that concept like most kids). It took awhile to realize that my mom knew so much from her own life and mistakes; I was determined not to make the same ones. One of my favorite songs that I am adding to the DVD is by Alan Jackson, "Remember When". I have been listening to the lyrics along with the DVD as I piece my family history together. It is such a perfect telling of our story. In the song he talks about how "thirty seemed so old" and how in time they realized it was a milestone. Everytime I hear this I can't help but think that thirty still sounds old to me! I am dreading my 29th birthday in February....and am fearing that 30th that will be approaching soon after. This song is such a good memory song....a little depressing though. These pictures sure make me miss my mom. She was so young and beautiful yet she would give up anything to make me and my brother happy. Even as a mother myself, I don't think I am nearly as selfless as she was. Looking through the pictures, I can see her in myself. There may be different facial expressions or poses that resemble me and I have noticed features in my face looking more like her. I often have to remind myself that I have given birth to 5 children. When I see other people my age who still have fabulous figures I have to remember this (someday mine will be close to what it once was). It is so easy to forget these things and then to watch how your children are growing up right before your eyes. I still have a hard time believing that I have a 10 year old daughter! So, in retrospect, I decided to create this DVD so everyone could see how our family story has been told over the years. While for me it seems I am reliving it while doing so and that is good, although hard at times. I want our children to see who their grandparents and great-grandparents are and know that our family was full of love. It shows in all the pictures and I hope to create many more fun, loving memories that will one day be in another video...the sequel in our lives. That is my thought for the day....enjoy